Falling..

Listening to : You - Satsuki

I am facing a problem. It's a problem without solution. Perhaps, there is .. but it's just not the right time yet. Due to this kind of problem, I've been suffering for nearly 3 years now. I just hope, it'll end some time around this year. I had enough being in this kind of state. Not just me but my friends are also facing this pain indirectly. This is due to my reaction to them, how I treat them, how I talk to them.

I know I'm very unfriendly when it comes to people. I do not care about people's feeling. I just say what I want and do what I want. But mark me, I know what I'm doing. Maybe sometimes, you saw me being rude but there's always a reason behind it.

I am quite troublesome.. heh..

But yeah, those who despises me can despise me all they want. They can leave me anytime they want. There's no need for you to give that pathetic look and give me all kinds of treatments. For me, these kind of people are like flies. They only came when they in the need of something, something dirty. I have no fear of losing someone like this.

My only reaction to this is ignoring and keep ignoring. I shall not lay one word until they say anything.

Until then..

The Hundreth Post Of Mine

fuhhh~ never thought i had posted this much. yeah,100 post! but nothing much to share with you guys. i just want to inform that starting tomorrow ill change my url address from 'farulsauzan.blogspot.com' to 'maitonami-ikarikenzetsumei.blogspot.com'

until then.

April Fool!

first of all i want to apologize about what i've done. im really2 sorry guys. actually i've never expected that this thing would be big. it's like everyone knows about it. what am i,a superstar with paparazi?

about me and elaine? actually it was a total fake guys.. all the stories i made was nothing but a mere lie. i couldn't believe that u guys actually believe me.. all those dreaming stuff,phone call,dating and what so ever,all of that was only my imagination. part of my plan for ... well you know .. this day.. xDD

but now i feel so bad cus i made all of you believe it.. im planning to continue this lie but i dont want to be a liar.. and i dont want to lie all the time. im not that kind of person. i lie for fun,to trick people but really,this is beyond my expectation.. i just want to trick hafizul and fauzan but i never thought that this news would be this big.. i felt like a total shit now.. sorry guys.. im really sorry.. first,i made my brother believed me,then fizul,fauzan.. now it's like all the n.e.r.d.s know about this.. im sorry cus i lie to you guys..

in shorts,my plan successfull,i fool everybody. hee april fool everyone.. hahah xp i dont know if this could be consider as an april fool cus i started fooling everyone yesterday.. but i assume it as an april fool.. and im enjoyed doing that.. also im feeling guilty at the same time,cus my purpose is only to trick 4 people but i never expected i've tricked more that 6 people.. again im sorry guys.. no hard feeling okay? hahaha xp

i guess,it's better for me not to do that again.. i was just trying to joke but i didnt believe that joke was considered as truth *sigh*

p/s : anyway,school was fun today,being surrounded by girls,STPRI girls. it feels like im the coolest kid in school.. hahaha xp and yeah,the girl who i said stupid yesterday,i've talked to her and it's not much. what im try to say is im watching her face to face,and her face reminds me of someone. she have a face, nearly same with my admire(the girl i like before i fall in love with my noty). also i get to smile and eyes contact with the girl who have nearly the same face with my noty.. ahh,im talking about girls now.. hahaha xp cool~i cant wait to see everyone's reaction tomorrow.. hee xDD