Mountain Gold That I Just Look Without Taking Some Of It

arhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!! i hate MYSELF!! i TOTALY HATE my SELF!!!!! arghhhhhhh!!!!!!!! why am i so stupid? whyy? why after i waited that long,i just wasted it like nothing!? what happened to me? i couldnt believe it. i wanted it so badly and yet i didnt grab it. urghhhh!!!!!

im so fuckingly a coward. how can i call my self with the title 'pencinta wanita' if i dont even have the guts to talk to her. she was right infront of me! why just i cant go to her and say hi then have a lil coversation? why?? my freaking leg wont move. it was frozen solid,all i did was nothing but looked at her when she looked at me! i can tell that she was waiting for me to come to her! that's why she was there! she gave me the opportunity to talk to her and i wasted it :'( i could see her angelic face in dissapointment after both of our parents arrived to pick us. i believed it,she was really waiting for me. i know it deep inside her heart. i can see in her eyes.

im really2307x sorry kimi-chan. im sorry :'( i know i should stand beside u this evening and started to know each other. i believed that u'll hate me after u gave me the opportunity that i wasted. i love you. i realise that nothing in this world going to stop that feeling inside of me. if u really are hate me because of today,ill just keep this feeling inside me and just protect u from behind. by doing that,i know that is the only way i can express my feeling towards you.

kimi-chan,im really sorry.

until then.