the feeling within my self

lately i feel so jealous when i go online and look at those nick who were in a relationship. i just dont know why. this happened in all of a sudden.

yeah,yesterday when i was looking at my friend who brought their lover with them. i said something in my heart. well,let just keep that a secret. i dont know whether i should say jealousy or envy.

to be honest,i really need someone who i could get pampered with. someone who could make me scream to them 'i love you'. someone who i could call and tell them 'i miss you'. someone who i could meet and hold their hands while the others were looking at us,envy because of the romance we have. oh i miss all of the relationship thing. to be exact,i actually miss all the time i had with her.

i could find my partner anytime that i want but it is just ...

*sigh* if only i could break my promise...

until then..