tortured

im sick of my life. im sick of this stupid life! from the beginning i know what life is,it's always been horrible. i feel dont want to live anymore. i hate my self and my destiny.

first,i realised that every good things that happened to me for a second,and i get disastrous for the whole year.

second,i feel that god really enjoy and entertain by torturing me. it's like i've been given a mission and i havent accomplish it but yet im still been given a new stupid fucking mission.

third,everything that is so important to me had left me. they are gone. first,the aura of heat that i got. second,my cheerful voluntary smile. third,the attitude of the real me. forth,the paradise i once had. five and the most important of all,my beloved beautiful gorgeous noty. and now,it's the thing that i cant live without,my dst line..

pathetic me.. my reason was so lame.. sucks to be me.. stupid.. stupid.. stupid..