delusion that brings a disappointment and gratification

last nite i was at the mall checking in at the rizqun hotel. after everything was done,i called some friends of mine and have a party in my room. it was totally fun,the room was also in a mess because of them.

suddenly i felt that i need to take some fresh air,so i decided to go to the verandah to take some. while relaxing my mind,i gazed at the surroundings. it's so peaceful and refreshing.

'psst~psst~'

i heard a voice that 'psst' me. i searched for the voice and gradually my eyes looked beside my verandah. i smiled but my heart was totally in chaos. it beats so fast until i could barely heard it beats. standing infront of my eyes was kim,whom i adored so much that i've ever did in my life. i stared at her beautiful face and astounded by her beauty that makes my heart fall. she looked so wonderful that night. i was amazingly amazed. she replied my reaction with her facinating smiles.

to prevent her eyes from looking away from me,i started to draw her attention. i didnt sure what i did and what our conversation was but it sure kept her attention towards me. i didnt sure how long we've talked,but we sure enjoyed our time by talking to each other. i invited her to my room after i realised that my room was empty. happily she accepts my invitation n went straight away into my room.

i opened the door for her and greet her with a warm smile.

"come on in" i smiled and didnt waste my chance to stared at her irresistible beauty.

she only responded it with smiles. ahh,her smiles was perfectly stunning,i said to my self. i requested her to sit with me on the bed and without question she quickly do my instruction.

to break the silence. i started my word with .....

"you're so beautiful tonight kim" i said while staring at her wonderful pair of eyes.

she smiled and thanked me for my compliment. i waited for her to talk but it seem she didnt know what to ask me. realising that we'll fell into silence,i continued to talked.

"it must be a coincidence that we met at a place like this..." i stop and looked at her face,waiting again for her to reply my words. realising that she wouldnt respons to what i said,i teased her.

"or .. you follow me here because u know that im going to stay here tonight" i smiled.

her expression change. she began to talk "no,no.. it isnt what u think. i've never intended to follow you here,i didnt even know that you're going to stay here. really.."

"oww so sweet,you're defending yourself now haha i enjoy doing that. really.. " i gave her a big smile and winked at her.

she mad and grumbled after i know that i mocked her deliberately. she was cute when she's doing that. i soothe her anger easily. i dont know how but somehow i managed to made her laugh and smile again. after she realised that it was already late,she asked me if she could go. i let her and escort her to the front door.

"it was nice to talk with you herzan,thanx!"

"my pleasure kim"
i smiled

then she went straight away to her door. as she opened the door,i watched her slowly move herself into her room. all of the sudden,my mind tells me that this is the perfect time.

"kim" i stopped her.
"yes zan?" she asked.
i brought her into her room "actually,i want to tell you something. it's not that important but uhh.. im not sure what,i bet u're going to mad at me when i told you this"
"try me" she smiles.
"remember the time when i told you that you're so beautiful? i really mean it" i said.
"yeah,i know that u're really mean it" again she smiled.
"kim,pls dont mad at me when i told u this. actually i like you. i love u more than anybody else" i confessed.

i could see a dissapointment at her face after i told her that. knowing that im going to be rejected,i asked her to save her breath. then i began my pace and leave her alone. but then she stops me.

"hey,its not a gentlemen to leave a gurl after they confess their feeling" she teased me. "haha you should watch ur face when u're in that state" she laughed.

i said to my self "wth,erhhh,eeeeee" it feels like i want to bite her with all my might. but then i heard she continues to talk. it's the word that i dont want to miss for the rest of my life.

"im sorry for doing that zan but i just want to reply what've u done to me earlier" she smiled. "and to be honest,i love you too"

it feels like i was in a heaven after i heard she said i love you too. it was a pleasant thing to hear that she said like that. the moment of happiness continues as we stared at each other and slowly moving closer,closing our eyes and lean our face towards each other.

and suddenly my alarm rang. i understand now that it was only a mere dream. damn! it was so disappointing. i thought it was real. damn! i try to sleep,continuing my dreams but i cant waste my time cus i have to get ready to school.

i wish that dream will come true.

p/s : i wrote this about 4 hours. fuhh,it feels like im writing a short story. actually my dream was short but to make it look intresting,i expand the story using repetition,simile and more xDD to fizul,pls comment me on my writing. just considered this as short story okay? and about the short form,just ignore it (: and yeah,if u guys realised,about the verandah. i dont rizqun have one. if im not mistaken laa,cuz this is my dream,you know,anything can happen in dreams.

*exeunt*