Battle and Appreciation

i always thought that i were alone. no friends and family, only have her to watch on me. wat i mean by no friends and family is i couldnt share my problems with them because i thought we were not that close.

i always thought,what will happen to me if she's die? how am i going to survived? and how will i survived? millions of questions are playing in my mind. am i going to die with her? or continue live with our love? thinking every of the answer makes me gave a long sigh.

i was so down backthen,i've tried to kill my self twice before,but i failed. god wouldnt let me do it. god gave me the third chance to live. what makes me did it? its because of this promise i made to her 'i rather die than breaking up with u,that's my promise'. i keep that promise and every of my promise to her but sadly she forgot every of her promise that she made to me. the fact,both of us are apart now. bt i just assume that she's leaving me for a while and will come back later. by that i will never have to kill myself in order to hold that promise. i miss her so muchh. ill always wait for her return. *sigh*

anyway to my friends,i never thought that we were this close,u'll are supporting me,giving me strength,happiness,hope,giving me breath to live again,even a new friend that i just met. althought for me,it lack of something *sigh* something important,her love. but u guys will always be by my side. to encourage me,motivate me,advising me and more. if before we had a battle with cambridge and we can defeat them together,why not this? i noe this is my battle,but i noe u guys will fight along with me. thanks everyone. thank you so much. i hope someday everything will return to normal. god will always show to everyone that justice is here in the world. i believe it! *smiles*

*walks out*