god bless you

i just got home a few minutes ago. i set my phone to play all indonesian song that i have in my cellphone.

suddenly,it accidentally played a long forgotten song that i've never ever dare to play and a song that i'd forgot for more than two months.

'ku ingin kamu by romance'

i didnt expect this will happen,probably because i've forgotten that song for more than two months. as the intro starts,my mind flies back to the past where sadness that i've tried to kill before but instead of killing it i only managed to locked itself in a place that no human ever step their foot on it.

now,it unleashed itself from the cage i made and it gradually caresses my heart and make my eyes drops millions of diamonds. my body is weakening. my hands is trembling. i want to scream. grief! grief! grief! and grief! so that the gate guardian of heaven can also feel my pain.

*sigh* life is so frustrating.

god,i have one good wish. please remove all my miseries from my body so that i could sleep forever in peace. where i can feel no hurt and warm. where i couldnt do anything but listening. where i called that life a perfect life.

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so after all that i can rest my self .. in peace..