Bad Day

i hate my fucking life.. today for the second time,i lost my spec. shit! this had happened twice. mom's going to be mad at me. i hate my self. god,why did u give mu such life? why is it have to be this,the thing that i have problem with. god,pls u can give me any test but not this. even the test is someone who i love hates me.. i know it'll hurt more than the test i have now but i dont care. i just hate to make my parent sad,mad especially my mom. looking back on her hard work,i regret that i was born to this world by her. she didnt deserve a son like me. she suppose to get a better one.

*sigh*

i hate my life..