sweetdream

*yawning* just woke up an hour ago. still sleepy. last nite,i slept around 3 am. i'd a gc with my beloved nerdos until 1,maybe,if im not mistaken.. :) then i played PES with my brother and i lost 3 times in a row. damn! i suck. hahaha

oh yeah. last nite was fun especially when i was sitting close to her and holding her hands. very romantic. haha also yeah,that girl told me to let go her hand but then i noticed her reaction. she actually liked when i hold her hand that tight and dont want to let me go. too bad there was no kisses last nite. hahaha =p

oh well,i didnt ask for more. to dreamed her last nite is already enough for me. i never plan about dreaming her actually. kimiii-chann. i love you :) thanks for appearing in my dream. thanks for helping me to get rid of my stress. thank you.

until then..

Revenge For Blood

That night was full of blood and tears. The war between those two families had come to an end at last. Even though that the war had ended, the feeling of hatred was still prevail. The desire to avenge his father’s death has become a part to his heart and he made a promise to himself, he will kill the killer of his father and claim back the title that they should have. Day passes to week and months changing to year, everybody seems to forget the tragedy between those two families.

note : guys! what do you think about the opening. Do you think I should continue it?

a gud thing? or the opposite?

i heard two days ago that my noty has go back with her bf. yeay! i dont whether this is a good news or not but definitely a good thing for her. to see her happy is my main objective. oh yeah,all of my confusion are all gone now :D that's what the 'yeay!' for hahakz.

noty,i love you so much my dear. i just want us to be bestfriend sweetheart,not more than that. pls be happy always with ur love one. *hugs* and yeah,im really sorry for causing u much trouble. i didnt do that on purpose.

okay,that's all for now.. need to relax my mind. im so darn freaking stress on thinking how to get more closer with my beloved kimimaru-chan. hahaha xp

until then..

S . O . S

guys,help me! im confused. just now something had happened and it made me to tears. 3 girls that i have in my mind vanished all of sudden because of this.

my beloved noty asked me to goback with her. she promised me that everything will not be the same as before,she's changing now.

tell me guys,what should i do? as u all know,i still love her so much. from the day she left me,my love at her never fade even a little. no matter how many times i try,my heart is still hers. her face is the one who haunts me in my dream. i still want her but when i think about what had she done to me before,the pain wont go away. it still hurts until now,i often cry when i think about it.

im so darn confusedd xS..

FB

well,well,well.. if before we use friendster to make a lot of friends. now we use facebook..

ehem2

i just made my facebook yesterday. so to all of you who have a facebook. please do add me up okay?

either search my name 'herzan kitz' or my email 'zero_kitz2307@html.cm'

oh yeah,yesterday i tried to sign in for my facebook but then i forgot my password.. silly me. haha..

today i retrieve my password by asking the facebook to sent the password to my email.

okay that's all for now..

until then..

Bad Day

i hate my fucking life.. today for the second time,i lost my spec. shit! this had happened twice. mom's going to be mad at me. i hate my self. god,why did u give mu such life? why is it have to be this,the thing that i have problem with. god,pls u can give me any test but not this. even the test is someone who i love hates me.. i know it'll hurt more than the test i have now but i dont care. i just hate to make my parent sad,mad especially my mom. looking back on her hard work,i regret that i was born to this world by her. she didnt deserve a son like me. she suppose to get a better one.

*sigh*

i hate my life..

For my beloved girlfriend

i watch you today as i watched you before.
with the beautiful azure of the blue sky as your background
your beauty look so perfect.

as the sunlight fades,the dull comes.
the gloomy shares its darkness
the cold of the night wind chill my spine.
i can see nothing but all dark and murky night.

the light from the street were dim.
it is so hard to see everything
stab my heart if you dont believe me.
even the one with vision also falls.

despite all of that,you are the only thing i could see.
your lightness alters everything.
you are the shine of dark
and you are the smile of bright.

because you are my special one
you are my bestfriend
and you are my life
stab my heart if you dont believe me...
cus i swear to god that everything i said is true..

"HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY MOM!"

note : actually this poem is for my nerds,my bestfriend and my ex-girlfriend. never thought to dedicate this for my mom. but then after i think for a while. this poem also suits for my mom on today mother's day. (:

god bless you

i just got home a few minutes ago. i set my phone to play all indonesian song that i have in my cellphone.

suddenly,it accidentally played a long forgotten song that i've never ever dare to play and a song that i'd forgot for more than two months.

'ku ingin kamu by romance'

i didnt expect this will happen,probably because i've forgotten that song for more than two months. as the intro starts,my mind flies back to the past where sadness that i've tried to kill before but instead of killing it i only managed to locked itself in a place that no human ever step their foot on it.

now,it unleashed itself from the cage i made and it gradually caresses my heart and make my eyes drops millions of diamonds. my body is weakening. my hands is trembling. i want to scream. grief! grief! grief! and grief! so that the gate guardian of heaven can also feel my pain.

*sigh* life is so frustrating.

god,i have one good wish. please remove all my miseries from my body so that i could sleep forever in peace. where i can feel no hurt and warm. where i couldnt do anything but listening. where i called that life a perfect life.

. . .

. . . . .

so after all that i can rest my self .. in peace..

for my beloved BE UTD

i just got home about half an hour ago. i feel bad leaving my teammates playing against boo fc-the second toughest team after ASI. i know that we are going to lose no matter how hard we'll play. due to my injury,there is no way i could play properly.

sometimes hearing my friend said 'it's easy with you in the team,they only focus on you not us,so we could break their defender easily' is making me sad because for me they are trying to make themselves low,as if im the superstar and they are nothing. i hate that. we are team. i am nothing-just like them.

*sigh*

hearing all my friend to say like that makes me sick,especially the opposing team. it is like they think that my team only rely on me and they think that my team is nothing without me. i cant prove them wrong. i just dont know how.

for me,if i dont have my team,i will be a nobody. seriously. now,i think it is more better for me not to play today. so all our opponent can see that my team still can give a fight even without me in the team.

im so proud of their will to play eventhough i was trying to make them forfeit the match without playing. i did that deliberately cus i just want them to prepare themselves during our next and last match against DM utd.

i guess that's all for today. wish you luck guys. i know you guys can alse give them a hell even without me playing with ya. show the what BE UTD are made of!!

until then..