Regrets

That night was so quiet and peaceful. The wind blew smoothly telling me that night is going to be a cold night. I sat at my veranda, enjoying the soundless night. It’s so peaceful, I thought. While I’m sitting there alone, everyone has already closed their eyes, sink into their dreams. I’m closing my eyes but it’s just not like everyone else does.

I have always been a loner. It’s not because of I don’t have the skill to socialize or something but it’s because of myself. I couldn’t find that people are interesting. Most of the people around me talks about their wealth, their studies, sports and many more. They rarely talk about their friends and people around them. They didn’t seem to care about human life and … nature too. They are more concern about their studies rather than their feelings. Some say that studies is your feelings, it’s because when you achieved good result, you’ll get a job and you’ll be happy.

I disagree with this. Why? It’s because there are many things that is more important than your studies. Your health and people around you, this is way more important than studying. While you’re busy with your studies, you tend to forget the world. You only think about how to achieve a good result and be the better student around the world. By doing this, you never know that people around you is sick or good. By the time the people around passed onto another life, only then you realised how bad you are as a human. How sick you are as a human! and then you’ll start cursing yourself and blaming yourself because of what you did. Then you realized that your “unimportant person” is important to you and you’re starting to miss them, although you know it’s too late.

Sigh, I did this once. I used to be the best student in my school back then. I love it and I’m proud of it. Then after that, I got my scholarship. I went to UK and studied there. As expected, I beat everyone and became the best of the best student around UK. I was given by the Principal as the student of honour and I’m so happy about this. I could see a bright future ahead of me. Unfortunately, while I was busy doing my studies, my mom fell ill. By the time I know this, I realised that I was too busy thinking about myself and forget about my surroundings. I regretted this. So I rushed back to my country, hoping that I could visit her soon but fate is too cruel. She died before I could see her last expressions. I stayed with dad after that but a week after my mom’s death, my dad went crazy due to uncontrollable heart-suffering. He was sent to the mental hospital. Not long after that, dad committed suicide.

Due to what happened, I started to cry and kept myself locked in a room. The only thing I do everyday when I woke up from bed is crying and regretting. Because of this, I lost my vision and I became blind. Thinking back of what happened, I wish I could reverse time. So I could correct all the mistakes I made. The certificates that I’m always proud of, can do nothing but watch me as it hanged on my wall. Treasure the people around you, don’t just think about yourself. Regrets can’t bring back the time you’ve missed. So, be wise in doing everything in your life. Don’t be a person like me cause you’ll regret your whole life. Good luck in everything my fellow readers.

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