i need to be alone for a while.

*sigh*

if i said im happy now, i would be lying. seriously, after the exams yesterday i could not think very bright. every of the surroundings around me gave me too much burden for my weak soul to carry.

i thought after all the exams, my life would be free from anything that could hurt me. i dont know when did i get this but i can feel that im being watched by the eyes of an assassin. someone who hates me because of something that i do to make myself happy. someone who's going to stab me from the back while i put my guards down.

i just hope those people knows what're they doing. i just didnt get it, why do i have to face all of this. i wonder if there'll be someone who will be picking up all the shattered pieces of me when im falling apart and scattered everywhere. and i know the answer is no body.

as from what i said before, life is only for one man himself. you got your ownlife and i got mine, we're not going to be together forever.
this is the real world you once adore because of its beauty. you have to open ur eyes more on the dark side alone. forget all of those happiness cus it's not going to help you nowhere. it will only let your life been taken freely.

this world is still cruel as it was from the beginning. all of this bond and relationship thing never stops from making me sick.

until then..