sorry for the words i used at you last time.

it has been a week since i deleted that picture from my blog. i feel completely empty. if before i used to be entertained by her and now it's silent who takes over her place. whenever i misses her i just cant stop myself from thinking about her. last sunday, we had a fight. i remember that was the first time ever that i've ever cursed her after more than a year been together. i just couldnt stand the pain by keep getting hurt and curse by her. imagine the feelings when someone we care so much hurting and cursing us without feeling guilty. that's how i feel and i've been through for more than a year. it's hard for a men to just shut themselves up whenever they get scolded or cursed. and what about me? i've been shut myself up for more than a year from saying anything whenever she curses me. and that day she really pushed me to my limitation. but really, after saying that i feel regret. i want to apologize bt it's not my fault. *sigh*

god, lend me the strength to overcome this test. lend me the will to continue this test..