i woke up in the morning,looking at the mirror and washing my face. i thought for a while "i wonder how is it going to day?" and gave a long sigh.
as soon as i arrive at work,i do my routine as usual open all the pc,cleaning and counting all the stuff in the cafe. huh! feels like im in school again,oh well as soon as i finished all that stuff,i began to play my account at torncity. while waiting,i check my fs,and i found out something,new spouse??????? what the heck?
huh! i just cant believe this! i check again and again,opening my eyes more bigger than before,but still the one that i saw just now was still there. *sigh* maybe this is the life i was destined for,maybe the feeling of love has been fading away from "my life". i realise now that everything has change,including my self. if last year i was able to change this,but now i just let it be. if last year i was so stronger to face things like this but now im not. im giving up,im tired. just imagine how did i feel? i believe if another man were in my place,im sure they'll wouldnt last for a month. why,why my heart choose to love you "life"..
*sigh*
they say "bad things are not bad after all,there will be a subject to learn behind that" i believe in those words and waited patiently but still it'll never change and it getting more worst and worst. how im able to face that,even my tears are drying now,i cant even cry now. i cant cry to let my pain go. that makes me getting WEAK AND WEAKER! urggghhhhhhh.
oh god! pls help me to face this,lend me ur power to make me stronger. but if ya wont help its okay,i've my own solution. the faster,the better. getting slash everytime could make me want to do it more faster.. come onn.. im waiting :)
as soon as i arrive at work,i do my routine as usual open all the pc,cleaning and counting all the stuff in the cafe. huh! feels like im in school again,oh well as soon as i finished all that stuff,i began to play my account at torncity. while waiting,i check my fs,and i found out something,new spouse??????? what the heck?
huh! i just cant believe this! i check again and again,opening my eyes more bigger than before,but still the one that i saw just now was still there. *sigh* maybe this is the life i was destined for,maybe the feeling of love has been fading away from "my life". i realise now that everything has change,including my self. if last year i was able to change this,but now i just let it be. if last year i was so stronger to face things like this but now im not. im giving up,im tired. just imagine how did i feel? i believe if another man were in my place,im sure they'll wouldnt last for a month. why,why my heart choose to love you "life"..
*sigh*
they say "bad things are not bad after all,there will be a subject to learn behind that" i believe in those words and waited patiently but still it'll never change and it getting more worst and worst. how im able to face that,even my tears are drying now,i cant even cry now. i cant cry to let my pain go. that makes me getting WEAK AND WEAKER! urggghhhhhhh.
oh god! pls help me to face this,lend me ur power to make me stronger. but if ya wont help its okay,i've my own solution. the faster,the better. getting slash everytime could make me want to do it more faster.. come onn.. im waiting :)
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