Hope

current music :: only human by K (one liter of tears ending theme song)

hey it's 3.06 am on the 1.1.2010.. haha guess what? i couldnt sleep.. -.-' i've finished bbq-ing with family about 2 hours ago.. it was an awesome night.. i didnt do much but i had fun with all the family members..

right now, im just sitting alone at my verandah while hearing the song i mentioned above on repeat.. i still could hear people playing firework this morning.. i guess people are really enjoying their time before school re-open.. i miss school already but the holiday is about to end.. to be honest, i cant really describe my feelings right now. i wanted to go to school that bad but i dont want this holiday to end.. seriously, time sure flies. i cant believe we're in 2010 now.. it's time for most of people especially me to move on now.. forget all the bitter-sweet memories and start the beginning of the new era.. i wonder if i could do that..

for real, i really want to drop my tears but i cant stop smiling at the same time.. i dont know why that happens but .. *sigh* i could put it in words how sad and happy i am to leave 2009.. this will be my third year with my N.E.R.D.S.. i really hope that this bond will stay strong..

one more, i've found a key that will unlock my long time locked heart.. but im not really sure if it's love.. i met her last week and then i started to miss her.. and i met her again yesterday when i was helping my aunt to buy a cake.. the time i saw her, my heart was beating so fast.. as if im not the one who control my body.. i was stunned.. i tried to act cool by pretending that i didnt see her.. but by the time she saw me and waved hi to me, i couldnt help but smiled happily.. i dont know but i think she and me cant be nothing more than just a friend.. i really wish we could be more than that but she seems to have no interest in me.. being friends is also okay i think..

maybe..

i just hope i will not get too excited or ill get hurt in the future..

okay, guys.. ill stop here for now..

see yaa..

until then..