A Painful Year To Look At

current music :: another world arni village - yasunori mitsuda

fuhh.. i've been waiting this for so long.. finally, after a painful year of being 17, i've turned to 18.. which means that im FREE!! heheh..

i just dont know why im being so happy this morning while most of the soul is resting peacefully.. i mean i've never been this happy when i was 17.. when i looked back what happened, it was sure a tough year to face but surprisingly i made it.. being dumped like nothing after we got together for more than one year, i almost killed myself but heh .. that was past..

now i should be more mature and act like one.. i just hope ill be able to keep this shape for the next year and so.. i know back then everybody is worried about me for acting like a total loner or should i say loser.. im sorry for that.. hehe

ill try to change okay? no promises though (:

okay, what i wish for this birthday? hmm.. lemme think, i think i want to get my driving licence if it's possible.. the next one will be a light to shade this darkness in my little world and a forever smile for every of my day in life.. i think that's all, i couldnt think any for now.. or maybe a trip to japan haha just joking. i know that is a mere dream but it's not wrong to dream right? (:

okay, what else i should talk about, i havent been blogging for a very long time.. oh yeah, i got a lot of greetings by my facebook friends.. seriously, i never expected that it would be that much. i dont know. maybe, it's because i never received that much when i used friendster.. thank you guys.. facebook is GOOD!! haha

oh yeah, i got 2 presents already given by the people in this world. first present was "RENTRER EN SOI LAST CONCERT DVD" given by reiko the dangerous mind.. thanks reiko-san.. ill try my best going to cc to download that xD.. second, im not really sure but i heard from a friend that a new dota map will be released today.. thanks icefrog.. xD oh yeah, i almost forgot, my dear satsuki is going to perform his oneman show today.. i wish i could be there in japan watching him singing cuz that'll be a great birthday gift after my rentrer en soi last concert dvd.. anyway it's still consider a birthday gift for me eventhough im not there..

lastly, before i stop. i would like to thank everyone who is celebrating today's event although i didnt celebrate christmas but it's an honour that everybody is celebrating my birthday.. thankyou so much guys..

ill miss this blog.. i hope ill always come and write something in this blog again like always.. okay, bye for now..

until then..