Lovelorn

current music : i fall down by josh golden.

heyaa..

i miss this blog.. >_<

what's more, im feeling so empty and lonely now. im facing a difficult situation right now. a friend of mine is having a tough time with his love life while im here having an emptiness for so long. it's nearly a year and i still cant find the right angel for this heart to conquer. im so depressed right now. i dont even know why but for sure i feel betrayed by the world.

just now, im having my night with my cigar while watching the sky. i saw the moon was covered by the clouds. no stars for me to watch tonight. a minute after that, i was thinking a quote.

"even the moon is lonely without the stars, how could human say that they feel happy when they're alone? it's nonsense!"

this pain and emptiness has been my friend for so long. it's like they're a part of me now. i tried to get rid of them before but i failed in the process leaving me craving for a touch from a beloved one. to be honest, i miss being called 'hubby', i miss kissing my beloved lips, i miss crying on her shoulder with her hugging me tight like a lock without a key. i miss texting someone in the middle of the night just to say 'i love you and i miss you'. i miss all that.

*sigh*

i wish i could cry now but i just cant..

until then..