Perfect..

everything works perfectly according to what i've planned. hahaha *evil laugh*

anyway,i've just finished my english literature lesson just now. my teacher told me that i looked like a MOB! hahaha do i look like one? i thought i was suppose to be looked like a nerd.. haha whatever..

oh yeah! before i forgot,there's a girl. that girl is the one who Muiz have crush on.. she always looked at me in the eye.. im not sure why but everytime i ACCIDENTALLY looked at her,she is also looking at me at the same time.. i guess probably she thinks that i like her.. *sigh* i told fauzan about this and he thought the opposite,he said probably that girl like me.. what the ****? haha anyway,i also look at that girl talking with a boy,i guess that's her boyfriend,because she's deliberately kiss that boy hand while looking at me.. i said in my heart,that girl is stupid,why should she do that? what,to tell me that if i want to get her,i should forget about it.. hahahahaha so funny and rusty style.. i've watched people like that for millions of time and im sick with it.. what im trying to tell is,if i looking at someone everytime doesnt mean i like them..

i just like to see their beauty that'd been given by god. their beauty is a part of nature for me.. to looked them smile with that cute faces made my self smile.. its not wrong right.. hahaha

ZanElaine

while i online last night,i've been invited to a GC by my old classmate. he introduce me some of his friend and we started chat. bt then,suddenly my email had been add by an unknown email.

i start to text with the mystery person.. bt that person txt me and introduce her self first. she is the one who's in the GC before,a friend of my friend. she told me that my friend ask her to add my email. my friend recommended me at her,telling that if she's looking for a guy,im the perfect one to choose.

damn! i said to myself.

anyway,after knowing each other,she gave me her number.. then after mc her,she call me. and we talk to each other for the first time. and what shocked me is she proposed me to be her boyfriend.. and my answer is ..

'im sorry i cant accept your proposal .. ' then i heard the sadness in her voice telling me that she's upset..

'uhh,its okay if u dont wan .. '

i cut her sentence before she finishes it. 'because as a gentleman,im the one who suppose to be proposing you,will you be mine elaine?'

happily she accepts my proposal and we're now officially couple. haha xDD tell me,how can i reject a proposal that match my type. she's totally my type. chinese girl with a beautiful face.. too bad she's a chinese but who cares,i dont care because i believe love have no limits. ehe..

too bad that i cant upload her picture here. i try to upload it but i cant,in fact i keep on uploading it to 4-5 times draining my credit.. shit!

okay,im off to school now. today is going to be my best day.. hee xDD

Crush

*chuckles*

haha someone's have opened the locked door for me. fuhh. i couldnt believe it takes 2 month to find someone who can do like that.. i though it will be a year or something,never though it'd only takes 2 month.. jovial,that's is a word to present the mood i have right now..

that girl,the first time i see her face. i was completely stunned. i said in my heart,she's perfect,totally perfect. she has the character and appearance that i want. it's such a waste that we didnt get contact with the eyes. unfortunately that girl,i didnt know her and i bet she's too young to be with me.

*sigh*

also i cant imagined that person will be my .......... someday. damn! hahaha

failure

*sigh*

today's recording was a failure. it's not that we're not recording,it's just we cant recording. well,im a lil bit upset about it but after thinking about it,i know it's not the right time. ofcourse,im not blaming my friends because of their noises,but i realise my music also need to be improve. i need to add a lil bit more music if i want my song to fit the one that i wanted.. i guess maybe next time. haha

p/s : thanks guys! i enjoyed our evening tdi ;DD aku sasak c darknezZz. i need to improve my skill in playing my fav character.. haha until then..

beautiful but not perfect

i dont know why but it seems now that i tend to watch the black night sky rather than sleeping early or going online.

everytime i look at the sky,i watch the sparkling stars and it brings back the memories i had with my noty. when im alone and being ignore i tend to look at the sky.

i used to watch the sky with stars but no moon.. i also used to talked to the sky and complaining to them about my problem and my life. it's sad remembering all those memories.. it feels that im crazy..

the sky that has no moon bt stars is beautiful but alone. just like me. *sigh*

the beautiful one bt still not perfect..

what is LOVE?

what is love..? this question comes into my mind all of a sudden.

is it to have a perfect partner and live with them forever?

or is it about to have a beautiful girlfriend or boyfriend and left
them when there're more adorable people than the one with us?

or is it about that we can meet them always and make love everytime,anytime and anywhere?

or is it about age and wealth?

or is it about fame and everything?

or is it about having a soulmate that will entertained us everytime?

or is it about having sex with their partner and change to another one if getting bored?

or is it to have more than one partner?

*sigh*

i really dont understand what love really is.. it makes me confused to figure it out.. *sigh*

from my perspective,love is having a partner that we want and most important is they love us like we love them.. having a partner that love us because what we really are. not because they want us to change this and that.. but that was only my perspective,its not what love really is..

*sigh*

i hope that someday,someone will show me what love really is.. okay that's all i want to talk about now,i need to see the black night sky.. it's beautiful although there is no moon and only stars but it's a wonderful vista.. a nice thing to view.. my mind think like this

'those sparkling stars is beautiful but too bad there's no moon with them,and the stars are lonely just like me..'

*exeunt*

Perfect Night

it was so silent tonight. the sound of rustling wind can be heard. sparkling stars could be seen at the black night sky and the full moon makes everything just perfect. also,not forget the chilly cold breeze that blows pass through us and make people shivering. the clouds and with its different shape that sometimes forms a heart and other thing. tonight was a perfect night for people to calm their mind and relax their self.

note : aha i was just testing my self to write a descriptive writing. dont know if it's ok or not. AKI2 tua:p give me comment about my descriptive writing. need some help yo. i think my english writing is kinda awkward yo. help me. help me. help me..

Lovelorn..

i gave a long sigh. thinking of my heart. every morning it always been like this,my mind just keep on thinking about my memory with my noty. i just cant accept the fact that she's died for more that 2 months now. if only i could mc her and she would reply it,that will make me feel better but i knew not all of our dream can happen in this brief world.

i have to know that she and i would never ever be together again. hatred is between us. love will never come between us ever again,even in a form of friendship. *sigh* its over.. i will be missing her forever.. n ever..

let the new path opens.. and make me learn how to walk with it..

hatred

i hate it!
that girl left me because of that stupid APE!
i hate it!
that girl is so cheap than my bubble gum.
i hate it!
that girl is more stupid than a donkey.
i hate it!
that girl is far to be a human than a monster.
i hate it!
that girl is saturated! (laugh10x wtf!)
i hate it!
that girl hates me because she leaves me. (well,got a lil confuse by this,i really didnt get it. i mean,why should she hates me more than i hate her. this doesnt make any sense)
i hate it!
that girl broke her promise.
i hate it!
because that girl is making my life worst .. i couldnt live without her.. the pain i feel is more than every pain in this world ..

urhhh.. stupid! stupid! stupid!

losing. (hope im wrong)

i cant sleep tonight. it seems that i got in a lovelorn. fuhh~i miss that girl so bad. but why? why should i miss a girl that broke my heart? why do i have to think about her again and again.

*sigh*

anyway while thinking about my past,i try to make a short story but the thing is i couldnt. my mind went blank,i couldnt make up any stories. shit! mann. i didnt have any idea. huh~i think i've lost my talent in writing. oh mann~this sucks! hope im wrong about this ...

*walks out*

Jelous

*sigh*

its been a while now. i know im lazy to update this site. im really sorry that. forgive me viewers.

just now,im view my bestfriend profile and i look at his primary photo. its a picture of him and his girlfriend which is also my 'LEPAK' gang before. they both look perfect together and so sweet as a perfect couple should be. hope both of you will be together forever and find ur happiness by being together guys. =)

tchh .. while looking at them,my mind starts to think..

'would it be nice if she and i didnt have to turnout to be like this'

when that line comes into my mind. my heart start to grieve and sorrow come to caress my heart. then it started to rain..

*sigh*

Late Update. Sorry =D

*cough2x*

mann~its been a while since my last update on this blog. im sorry to the viewers. fuhh,i better clean up all the dust now. this place sure is a mess..

there's no story about me lately,only yesterday,im start schoolin'. yesterday orientation was boooorrringggg. from 8.30 am to 4.30 pm,the seniors and teachers are non-stop giving us briefing about school. mann~its sucks. sitting on the chair and hearing all their lame speech makes me sick.

at the same time im also enjoyed yesterday's orientation,even my heart is still owned by her bt my nature as a guy keeping me on looking at all the beautiful girls. unfortunately,not all them fit to my taste,i only can comment them ok. i havent found someone that can make me say like this.

'oh man,that girl,i want her to my girlfriend'

*chuckles*

maybe,i was too picky. haha anyway,last friday 27.2.09,my mom bought me a present because of my achievement in my o'lvl.

HER PRESENT IS : NOTEBOOK WITH THE BRAND OF DELL,STUDIO 15. THANKS MOM! I LOVE MY NOTEBOOK SO MUCH. IT'S SO COOL,TOTALLY MY TYPE =D ILL TRY MA BEST TO ACHIEVE GOOD RESULT IN ALL OF MY EXAM (:

note : this was suppose to be post on 4th March 2009,bt i didnt have time last wednesday,busy,busy,busy. haha kay dats all. sorry yea viewers.